Showing posts with label mindfulness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label mindfulness. Show all posts

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Orthorexia, Food and/or Grocery Store Nazis, Fat Acceptance and Mindful Eating

I do triathlons. Long distance triathlons. Ironman and beyond. I've been told I'm a badass, but I believe that one should not call oneself a badass. I always say that I am just doing something I love!

Speaking of things that I love, I love food. Not in a "I will eventually weigh 400 lbs." sort of way, but face it, food is...tasty. And when you are eating for performance, as I do much of the year, pretty much anything that goes in my maw is tasty. What I mean by that is go ride 150 miles and then eat kale with turd sauce. It will taste awesome because your body craves the calories, and when they hit your bloodstream all that wonderful insulin is secreted, beginning the process of replenishing the glycogen in your muscles. Although I hate kale. To me it tastes like grass, and not grass growing on a tropical island--grass growing in my neighbor's shitty, weedy lawn.

I grew up in a family with 5 children, and Mom and Dad did not make very much money, so we tended to eat rather frugally. Mom was a decent enough cook, and she could bake some great bread and cookies--although her pie crust left something to be desired--but we didn't care because the filling was always good! When she returned to the workforce when I was in 7th grade, I took up helping her prepare meals, and then when I was in high school, I completely took over making the family dinners, including a really nice dessert. My older sister was already off to college, but my 2 brothers, younger sister and Mom and Dad really liked my cooking, and I took to reading cookbooks and expanding my repertoire.

Fast forward to me being done with college and living on my own and deciding I wanted to sort of specialize in Italian cooking. So since I'm a tad OCD, I bought some cookbooks, studied them and had at it. I expanded into some Chinese and Mexican. Cooking is basically following instructions, and from repeated following of instructions, learning how to alter the basic recipe and then progressing to creating your own variants or completely new things. I still cook a lot of things from recipes, only because I believe they were already spot on! Some I have memorized, but many not--there's not enough room in my brain for all that in addition to everything else I need to keep on top of.

My love of Italian cooking and cheese got me in trouble once upon a time, because I was just eating too many calories for my activity level, and that combined with an adverse cholesterol test result spurred me to change my diet. Well not so much my diet, but my approach to food. What I really needed to learn was...wait for it...how to eat anything I wanted in moderation. At some point, either through deliberate action, or through serendipity, everyone realizes that you can't just eat with abandon, and either counts calories or uses some method of keeping the calories in/calories out in balance. I'm assuming here a person who has a realistic definition of what constitutes a healthy weight/body composition. Last night, I watched about :15 of a program about BBW women and I found it extremely sad that these women saw absolutely nothing wrong with carrying around an extra 100-300 pounds! But that's another topic for another day.

It took me a number of years to get the whole moderation thing, and along the way, I discovered a key aspect of my personal weight management methodology: many foods should be categorized as treats, and you can't have treats every single day and expect to maintain health/healthful weight unless you are exercising a shit ton. Whenever someone approaches me to discuss weight/dieting (and this happens frequently enough at my Y because I guess I look like someone who would know about this), this is one of the first truths I cover with them. You can't eat cheese burger and fries today, pizza tomorrow, huge dessert next day, and so on, and expect it to have no impact on you when you are barely exercising.

And that's the second shocking fact I give them--you are barely exercising. Your 30 minutes or 1 hour a day isn't much at all, and it's certainly not enough to give you free rein to eat whatever the hell you want all the time.

But, if you start to accept that you can't have everything you want to eat all the time, but you can have it sometimes as a treat, then over time, you will come to actually enjoy the core healthy foods: fruits, vegetables, lean protein, nuts, seeds, and less refined grains.

I don't espouse any particular "diet" like Paleo or Atkins. I focus on eating an appropriate amount of carbs for your activity level. That's it. I came to this revelation from a sports nutrition book I read years ago combined with an exercise physiology book and of course, lots of Internet reading. My Mom had Type II Diabetes, so I learned about that, and all this heart disease and weight management basically comes down to one thing: carbohydrate consumption. You eat too much for your activity level and your body (because it's really good at it) tries to put the excess someplace for immediate or future use. That will be fat--subcutaneous at first, then intramuscular, and finally within your organs (which is how you end up with fatty liver disease just by eating excess carbs!). And oh by the way you will have excess sugar floating around in your blood and become diabetic at some point. Oh joy! It's not a question of if, but when. It doesn't matter what type of carbs were eaten in excess, but usually it's not vegetables. It's usually processed crap which is nutrient deficient yet calorie rich.

Fuck, I completely digressed. The point of this post is that I don't have a list of "foods I should never eat." Now, there are many processed foods I just have no desire for (what the fuck is "Texas Toast?"), but hey, if I really want gas station brownies because my blood sugar is plummeting, then I'm going to eat them.

Recently, in a Facebook group containing triathletes (mostly Ironman level, although for some reason they let in those loser sprint people--ha ha, just kidding), someone who was stepping up to Ironman distance asked for people's nutrition recommendations. And she was smart, in that she said her biggest concern was eating enough for performance. Someone else posted about how Paleo eating is the best thing since sliced bread.  I posted my handy carb calculator spreadsheet, and added comments about how when I'm training a lot, I add in things like Pringles, Cheetos, Twinkies and candy.

Well someone got all bent the fuck out of shape and went on a rant about how those things are horrible junk food that nobody should ever eat. Like I'm stuffing my face with huge amounts of those things! Um...no. I have personal rules about certain treat items and my starch consumption that I have found help me to keep my weight/body fat in check throughout an annual training cycle:
  • Under 10 hours of training per week (which is rare for me), I'm a fucking rabbit--dinner is lean protein and a big salad--no starch. 
  • 10-14 hours of training per week and I get to have rice more often than not at dinner time, because I am needing more carbs. But no pasta. And rarely Coke.
  • 14-17 hours of training per week and I pretty much need starch at dinner every day, and pasta 1-2 times per week. Coke becomes necessary once or twice a week, either to wake the fuck up (from boredom at work) and pre-load for a workout, or to keep from killing myself while I'm doing hard bike or run intervals.
  • 17+ hours of training per week and all bets are off--pasta, rice, and that's when I buy Pringles and candy. And if I feel like it, Cheetos, Twinkies and anything else.
So I get a kick out of someone going all nuclear on me for saying I eat certain foods when they have no clue about exactly when I do it. I also like Coke. A LOT. It's training fuel for me--all that luscious sugar and caffeine!  I smile whenever I see a semi-trailer carrying Coke, and if I'm close enough to it, I will wave at the driver!

Well a number of other people chimed in to support my POV on nutrition, including one guy who said he "eats like a goat." That's a good way to think about it. Now, I have complete respect for people who want to maintain a pristine diet, either Paleo or some other variant that includes zero processed foods. That's fine. I personally don't have 4 hours a day to spend on food obtainment and preparation, so I do utilize some processed foods. But in general, at dinner, I am eating home cooked goodness.

I know a couple who shops only at Whole Foods (yeah, them I'm sure you know them, too) and has at times gotten on my case about some of the things I eat. Oh but so why are you fat and I'm not? I guess it's better to be fat from eating only shit from Whole Foods than it is to be appropriate weight and eating like a goat? The thing about food is that once you eat it and burn it it's out of your system!  Who knew? But sometimes when people say "you are what you eat," I respond that, "then I'm a can of Pringles with a side of Coke and Gummi Bears." Even if you are eating your so-called organic food, it's being grown in the same air that the Pringles grow in. I know this.

The other component to my nutrition plan is that I can review at the end of a day and recount everything I ate. So while I don't count calories, I know whether I've been good or not. And I've been not great lately, but with just a little bit more focus, the 3-5 lbs. I want off of me will be gone. I know it's shocking that I can get overweight, right? When I'm up even 2 lbs. I start telling people I'm fat, and I know it makes them nuts. But then I say, "well if I don't care about 2, then I'm not going to care about 5, and then 10 and so on." There was a time long, long ago in a galaxy far, far away, when most of the US population thought the same way that I do--that 5 extra pounds was something that needed to be taken care of right away. I remember it! But that attitude has degenerated into "fat acceptance" and blaming the food industry for making us fat.

I don't buy into that. Sure the food industry compels us to purchase their cheap carb-laden products, and they are tasty. But unless you have some standard about the way you maintain your machine (i.e., your body), much as you probably have standards about how you perform at your job, then you are going to blame all sorts of external factors for why you're fat.

This blog is and always has been about the mind-body connection. If you do anything mindlessly, you will suck at it. When it appears a person is doing something in a state of flow, you can bet that they have put in countless hours to get to the point where they can be on autopilot. When you introduce mindfulness into eating and consider your perception of pleasure vs. sustenance, you either learn that pretty much any food is OK, or if you feel you need to control it precisely, that's OK, too. But don't get on my case and I won't get on yours. Both ways are OK.

Monday, April 28, 2008

Weekly Workout Totals 04/21/2008-04/27/2008

Can I just say last week was the best week ever? I feel absolutely awesome. I rode all 3 bikes last week (MTB, LGL and Bitch), I did another NothingMan yesterday, I got some bling on the way for LGL (and also Bitch, but I ain't sayin' what just yet), it's finally spring and my yard is looking spectacular and will just get better, and now I am going to start actually training for IMLP.

Up until now, my training has been preparing myself for the big volume stuff, and I think I have coached myself really well up until now. Maybe I finally am smart enough about how much I can do; maybe my both planned and unplanned rest time during the fall and winter was just what I needed, maybe I'm integrating my Dad's death--it's a lot of things all at once. I just feel like I have this glow about me. I want to do and be and suck up life. As much as it might seem it's all about triathlon, which is mostly what I write about here, that's not entirely true. Something I've learned over the past 6 months is how to balance it all a little better. Sure, I'm still triathlon centric, but I'm trying my best to keep the other things rolling as well.

And that little bit of weight I lost, well it can stay the hell off me. Once again, I notice how much lighter I feel when running, and I haven't lost any appreciable power on the bike, so what the hell. If it comes back, no worries. I also changed my running shoes--I switched to the lightest trainer that New Balance makes (and they are blinged out, too, with the special Dean Karnazes footbeds, so yeah, when I run I'm on top of Dean!). I'm thinking about changing pedals on Bitch to the same ones that are on LGL--haven't quite decided on that yet.

I'm also letting my hair grow out a little. Don't get all up in my face about having long hair--that is not going to happen--but I'm becoming comfortable with a bit more up there. Although my stylist is probably taking bets on the day I walk in and tell her to shave it down again! We'll see what I can tolerate once it's in the 80's.

I was talking with my brother (the one I love dearly), and he was reporting in on how his back is strained and his arthritis is acting up, and he asked me if I had arthritis yet, and I said no, and told him how great I feel. I realize that all could change for me in a flash, and I know it's a cliche that death makes you appreciate living that much more, but it's so true. It's not as if I didn't like my life before--I just like it better now. I also understand the nature of things, and that there will be discomfort or sadness or difficulty down the road.

But right now, this is it, and I'm going to stay with it. I feel really, really blessed to have the life that I have. I don't understand people who dislike Mondays--to me, they have always been the chance to kick off another awesome week, and on paper, that's what I'm about to have. Aside from training now, I can kiss my weekends goodbye. ALL BIKING ALL DAY! And then whatever else I can muster up the energy to do. Although, it makes me laugh, because yesterday after my little NothingMan, I was pretty tired, but then after I ate dinner I guess I decided I had more in me so I did a little record spinning and dancing. Honestly, lately I have been wondering where all this energy is coming from, but then I have learned to not really question it. As long as I have a smile on my face, kindness in my heart and a wicked strong body, what could be wrong with that? Yes, our bodies are just vessels, I know that, too, but I'm going to enjoy my vessel as long as possible!

You'll see below that I still am not sleeping as much as I would like for whatever reasons, but from years past I know that when I'm training intensely I can get by on less, which is why I sleep like a fucking tranquilized elephant over the winter. So with all the NothingNess that I've been doing over the last 8 weeks, I'm not surprised that I'm ahead of schedule as far as sleeping less. Last year, my average daily sleep started nosediving about 4 weeks later, so actually I'm doing well!

This coming week of training is a big biking week (4 rides--2 of them fairly long), and I should get in at least 200 miles. I'm also bumping up my swim volume. I'll be running off each ride this week, but no long run--running 6 out of 7 days. And then next week is a big run week. And that, ladies and gentlemen, will cap off my preparation for Triple T and then some!

Today's weather forecast calls for "Occasional showers...chance of thunderstorms and snow showers." You don't see that very often!

Come along for the ride--it's going to be Cracktacular!

Weekly Workout Totals 04/21/2008-04/27/2008
Swim: 8200 yards (4.65 miles) in 2.92 hours; 18% of weekly workout time; approx. 1021 calories burned
Bike: Approx. 140 miles in 8 hours; 51% of weekly workout time; approx. 3855 calories burned; Total TSS=480
Run: Approx. 25.41 miles in 3.86 hours; 24% of weekly workout time; approx. 1744 calories burned
Strength: 1.02 hours; 6% of weekly workout time; approx. 255 calories burned
All Sports: Approx. 170.06 miles in 15.8 hours; approx. 6875 calories burned
Sleep: 7.5 hours avg./night
Stretching: 1.57 hours. Massage: 1.5 hours