Wednesday, March 25, 2009
It's SWIM LIKE A PIRATE DAY!!!
Monday, March 23, 2009
And the Stream of Expected Changes Continues
Next, I have to adjust to life on the fucking trainer, but I start out with short workouts so that I can up the intensity, and for no good reason at all, I cut back on my swimming. And then I start working on some running intensity.
Next, I feel like a complete and total blob, because I hate how I look when I am not tan, even though it is probably just a few pounds of fat because I'm not training like a maniac. I remember that I need to be watchful of my diet, especially treats like candy and chips, because I usually don't start in on them until I'm training at least 15 hours per week.
Then I get up to around 15 hours a week and it's always a bit of a shock to my system, just getting used to the frequency of the workouts and all the bottles and how I need to manage my time very efficiently. But then after a few weeks of it, big things start to happen, since I usually don't hang out at 15 for very long.
There's the Monday morning workout, "Oh SHIT am I tired." I slept well last night, and felt fine when I woke up, but as soon as I started doing pullups, I could tell I was tired. By the time I got into the pool, I could tell I wouldn't be swimming too fast. There will be Mondays where I can barely put my face in the water I am so tired, but that won't happen for a few months (I hope!). And when one of those days happen, I have a conversation with myself and my little friends that goes like this:
Me: Huh, I feel kinda tired. I wonder if I should take a rest day?
Inner Devil: Fuck no just go a little easier today
Inner Angel: Gee, it wouldn't hurt you to take one
Me: I wonder when was the last time I actually took a rest day? Probably before some race...
Inner Devil: Rest days are for losers or the day before a race ONLY.
Inner Angel: Maybe you need a rest day.
Me: Now that I am thinking about it, what do you know? I can work out harder right now.
Speaking of shit, there's more of that happening, too, as my body adjusts to more food going in and consequently more shit coming out (sorry about that it's true). It will take a few weeks for me to get all synchronized on that front, which is mostly a function of run volume and frequency. I'm up to 5 runs a week, and I'll add a 6th in 4 weeks.
The next thing that will happen, I'm guessing in 2 weeks, is that Mr. Tapeworm will return. Since I've been dieting, I've been used to some feelings of hunger, but that's from calorie restriction. Mr. Tapeworm will see to it that not only am I hungry all the time, even while actually eating, but that while eating one meal I will be thinking about the next one!
Finally, I'll experience regular bonking. Not necessarily during a workout, but yesterday, for instance, after I finished about 2:15 of stuff, ate lunch, had a beer, had a lay down, then got up and started doing yard work (which apparently I do rather vigorously, go figure), and about :40 in I started bonking. It made me laugh, because now I need to be aware of any extra physical activity that I'm doing because it will require more calories coming in every 2 hours at least.
Bonking during workouts will happen when my timing is off, i.e., I started a workout later than I should have and didn't keep fueling right up until. This will happen usually during the week when work takes precedence over when I get my second workout in, since I won't eat lunch until after that's finished. And even if I pound a Coke or Ultra Violence, it might not be enough calories to keep me going, only because I probably am not able to keep my glycogen topped off on a daily basis when I'm at 16+ hours in a week.
All this while, I will be feeling like I am strong and that nothing can get to me, but you know what? Predictably I get a little moody. I know many people think they only get that when in a taper, but I am already there--it's more a function of how much I'm training. I already did a mini-build while doing the indoor sprint races, and now I'm in the volume build for Triple T and I already notice some moodiness. But I've done this for years now, so I've learned when to paste on the smile and say "thank you" when I might not feel like it or to just smile or to just be quiet.
It doesn't help to not have raced in 2 weeks. You know, even though it wears you down, you get used to the high of it because there is nothing like it. I just completed a survey which was fun to take, since it confirmed what I thought to be my mental state while racing. And that high can last you for a few days, and I naturally have these aggro tendencies, so you put it together and it's quite heady.
But then there will be the first 100 mile ride of the year, the first 2 hour run, the first 4,000 yard swim, and they will be other joyous markers of things to come. It makes a training year like climbing a mountain, and then you need to come down off of it. But the way up is fun, fun, fun, and you know what? Even if you reverse the first letters, it's still fucking fun!
Edit: During my little :45 run, I realized I forgot a few other markers:
- Gagging when I brush my teeth. This seems to start happening once I am racing, and then continues as I build volume, because brushing my teeth means either I'm on my way to a race or a long workout!
- Hot legs. As the volume goes up, so does the metabolism, and there comes a point when my legs are always burning up while I sleep, which makes me wake up and move to another part of the bed which might be cooler, or throw all the blankets off and put a cool feather pillow on myself, go into the guest bed which will be nice and cool, or move to the edge of the bed so a fan can blow directly on me. Last night was the first time where I had to have a fan blowing on me all night because I was so hot, even though the air temperature in my bedroom was maybe 68. When I travel during the summer to races or training weekends, it's a big joke with whomever is my roommate about how cold we will keep the room. 58-60 is not too cold!
- The MESS. Since I had my house all nice and fixed up, I've reverted to being somewhat of a neat freak, but once I start running and riding outside exclusively (and longer), time available to clean will go down the drain, and there will be shoes, helmets, dirty clothes and bottles in plain sight pretty much daily.
- Practically puking after runs from home. Why? I think because on the way back, I am usually so excited that I will be done for the day, and I usually have something in reserve so I throw caution to the wind and just gun it for the last mile. And then spend 5 minutes dry heaving and coughing!
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Weekly Workout Totals 03/16/2009-03/22/2009 and Miscellaneous Ramblings
While stretching I was thinking how is it that I feel so good right now? Maybe I expect to feel like crap--more tired, more sore muscularly, something. But it's not happening. I am not complaining--after all, it's only March! But it got me to thinking that this extra stuff I've been doing has been helping me in subtle ways. Like this morning, my right knee was a little gnarly from yesterday's ride (and probably the brick run), but I'm pretty sure jumping rope this morning fixed it right up. Why? Because it's tough to jump without putting equal force on both your knees, and my knees get out of whack because the left one has no ACL and so it fucks with my hip mechanics. And with the pushups and pullups, it has forced my back, from upper to lower, to equalize in strength, and I can tell when I roll on the foam roller that I am much more symmetrical in terms of which muscles feel "crunchy," which is a term I use when I can feel one muscle rolling over another one and the sensation to me is one of crunchiness, although maybe there's a technical term for it.
The other thing I notice is that just by dropping a few pounds I feel much better running, and since running is the big screwer upper of everyone's low back, it stands to reason I should not feel as beat up. Yep! I remember a few years ago when I first hit 112 lbs. how much I noticed how much better I felt.
I suppose watching my diet a little more has made a contribution, too. Although I have to say that 1/2 bag of jelly beans last night was necessary and must have contributed to me feeling so good running this morning!
It wasn't until this morning that I realized why my training plan had me doing the long run yesterday and the ride today--it's because I do another 1:40 run on Thursday morning, so if I'd done today's run yesterday I'd have one more day of recovery, but what the fuck, I've done a lot more crazy shit than that so no worries there. When I see what other people are up to on Facebook, I feel like a total slacker anyway.
Mentally I feel a bit edgy. Like I'm in an Ironman build. DOH!!! I feel strong and also like I could rip someone's face off at any minute. I know that sounds harsh, but it's just a state that my body gets in and it affects my psyche, too. But I'm aware of it, so I don't actually go around ripping people's faces off.
But this is just the beginning. I've got another 8 weeks of pretty serious training, and then it's Triple T, which by itself makes for a big week, and then 8 weeks of all out craziness followed by IMLP.
I should be happy I feel so good right now--the TIRED is going to be knocking at my door any day now, and I will welcome it with open arms, after all, whose idea was this shit anyway??? MINE!!!
Here's what I got done last week. Oh if you add in the extra crap, it's more like 17 hours...and why I didn't just ride another .5 miles to make 112, who knows? I didn't know I was off that number until today...
| Weekly Workout Totals | 03/16/2009-03/22/2009 This week's totals are sponsored by yin/yang |
| Swim: | 10050 yards (5.7 miles) in 3.58 hours; 23% of weekly workout time; approx. 1255 calories burned Canadian: 9189.72 meters |
| Bike: | Approx. 111.54 miles in 6.15 hours; 39% of weekly workout time; approx. 3325 calories burned; Total TSS=386 Canadian: 179.51 kilometers |
| Run: | Approx. 31.03 miles in 4.66 hours; 30% of weekly workout time; approx. 2100 calories burned Canadian: 49.94 kilometers |
| Strength: | 1.32 hours; 8% of weekly workout time; approx. 330 calories burned |
| All Sports: | Approx. 148.27 miles in 15.71 hours; approx. 7010 calories burned Canadian: 238.62 kilometers |
| Sleep: | 7.5 hours avg./night |
| Stretching: | 2.73 hours. Massage: 1 hours |
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Smells like a Breakthrough Workout to Me
I just wasn't looking forward to 3 hours on the trainer, but knew I'd probably get it done anyway. All winter long, I've been watching Ironman races while on the trainer, but today I pulled out an old TDF. I hope that my memory would be correct in that it's better to watch people biking the entire time than the other color crap that is on most of the Ironman coverage.
My original workout called for a 1 hour warmup and then 1:30 of some intervals, which meant I'd need another 1/2 hour of something, and while doing the first hour, I thought about where I wanted to put that extra 1/2 hour. I decided up front, so I'd end the ride on the hard stuff.
Pretty much as soon as I started riding, Mr. Headache left me, and my legs felt pretty darn good. But of course, you can't judge how you feel when you are riding easy. I took a short break at 40' in to do 50 pushups, 50 crunches and 15 pullups so I wouldn't forget to do them later. I decided my extra 1/2 hour would be at 80-85% most of the time. Well, that felt pretty good, too, so then I got to thinking how the original main set would feel and could I do it? Turns out, oh yeah! Here's the full workout I did:
WU: 60' @ 65-70%, 2x(12'@80-85%,3' Easy)
MS: 3 x (18' @ 85-90%, 6' @ FT, 1' @ 105%, 5' Easy)
I ended up with a TSS of 187, which ain't bad considering the first hour was fucking easy.
Next, it was time to run. Last week, I was Ms. Bonk on the run, but it was my own fault. Today I made sure to take in sufficient calories while on the bike that I should be OK. I ran outside, and as soon as I took off (after about a 5' transition), I was like fuck, my legs feel awesome! I was running uphill into a headwind and feeling great! So of course I wondered how long that would last.
I kept running into the wind so I'd have it at my back on the way home, and I never did experience what I like to call "brick suck." You know what I mean--that point in a brick run where you just feel like shit. I thought it would happen today especially since I had ended the ride going pretty hard, but no! I also noticed that I felt very light on my feet which tells me I'm just about at perfect race weight (maybe 111 now which is just fine). I negative split the run by a good amount (which was what I was supposed to do).
I'm sitting here thinking that today showed me several things:
- I have absorbed a lot of the intense stuff I was doing over the 8-week period where I was doing those 4 sprint races
- I have ramped up my volume (I'll hit almost 16 hours this week) safely
- It was a good idea to drop a few pounds
- I must be taking good care of myself to feel this good
I'm optimistic that I will have a good long run tomorrow, too, and since I have no schedule constraints tomorrow, I might just wait until it's warm enough for me so I can avoid the treadmill.
I am always grateful for a workout like today, because much of the time I feel like I suck, and then something like this happens and I think maybe not.
And now I must try and nap before an appointment in a few hours. Happy Saturday!
Friday, March 20, 2009
More Thoughts on Coaching
It's what goes along with the training plan, be it cookie-cutter or customized to you, that constitutes the actual coaching. What can that person teach you about how to manage yourself to go along with the training itself that will enhance not just your performance, but your progression in sport and life, assuming you've chosen to adopt triathlon/endurance training as a lifestyle? There are many aspects to that lifestyle, including but not limited to:
- Nutrition
- Body composition management
- Technique (swimming, especially)
- Recovery management (stress management, stretching, massage, general rest)
- Season planning
- Cultivating resiliency (which to me would include things like supplemental strength or functional training)
- Mental focus
- Race execution
- Injury prevention and management
- Equipment choice and maintenance
- Measuring, monitoring and goal-setting
Now, there are many good sources of all that extra information--books, the Internet, triathlon clubs, your friends--but when you are first starting out, getting a handle on it all can be a daunting task, so it really helps to have someone who can act as a mirror to you so you can have an idea of how you are doing and know when to integrate the various facets of geekiness.
What it comes down to if you are going to work with a coach is understanding what beyond the basic season planning and training plan construction you can expect. Also, know that almost any change in your training stimulus is going to make differences in your performance. You only get faster and stronger by continuously changing things up, and then there comes a point at which you've achieved your, let's call it "allowable," maximum speed, and from there on out you mostly just want to remain uninjured. Like me, for example, I can't and don't expect to get much faster at this point, and my objective is to not slow down too much for another few years.
Now, to expect one person to teach you and give you guidance on all those other geeky things is probably unrealistic. It would require almost daily contact, at least in your initial stages. This is why all these forums and websites have sprung up to preach the gospel of equipment this and nutrition that. Which is a good thing! But it does pay to have someone help you synthesize all that information into something meaningful for you. There is no one-size-fits-all.
I guess what I'm saying is that you need to decide how geeked out you want to be and then how long you want to take to get there, and then through a combination of self-study, mentor identification and possibly coaching, ramp yourself up and see what happens. So to me this is really about studying your body and your mind and putting it all together in a way that supports a particular type of sports habit. So decide how much you want to invest in yourself and then have at it.
When you look around at other athletes, you will notice that those you would consider successful are, in fact, quite geeked out, at least about themselves. They understand that there's a lot to this and that the training part is just a small piece of the equation, and they see this as a holistic effort.
When a person says they are unhappy with their coach, what it means is that, like in any business, their expectations weren't met. You need to be very clear with someone who says they are going to coach you as to what they specifically will be able to deliver to you vs. what you are going to need to do on your own. Your ultimate success or failure (however you define it) is going to depend on the sum of those two parts. And then there's personality and your own style of learning. Some people are OK with "DO THIS." I needed (and got) "DO THIS BECAUSE..."
There are all kinds of coaches out there, and even if you use one, remember that you are going to need to do a lot of work on your own, that no single person can know or teach you everything, and that you should seek out your personal Zen masters to show you the way.
Enough for now. Not that I'm geeked out or anything like that...
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Everyone's a Fuckin' Coach
Fact is, it's pretty easy to set up a website and then mine the Internet for all sorts of amazing content, such as which stretches to do, beginner training plans, the latest gizmo that will make you faster, the latest non-tri exercise trend, etc. It's a good thing that we all have access to amazing amounts of information, and it is true that it can be helpful to have it summarized for you by someone else. But that doesn't make that person a coach.
It's also pretty easy to take a beginner triathlete who has no clue about much at all, and give them a very basic training plan and presto, they will improve at S/B/R because, well, they just went from fucking aimless to a modicum of discipline.
Another form of "coaching" consists of telling a person to actually write down what they are doing and keep track of things like heart rate, pace, feelings of fatigue, etc. And by virtue of writing down things and being able to look at one's history, certain truths pop out, which of course, can only be analyzed by said coach. I am going to write a book called Keeping Track of Shit for Dummies. Chapter 1 will begin with the line: It is important to write things down. Please grab a pen and paper and write down that you just bought this book.
To me, a true coach is a person whose goal is to enlighten you to enlightening yourself. You are only as good as what you know about yourself. You are the one who wakes up every day and decides whether it's going to be a good day or a bad day, and this should not be based on what someone (even you yourself!) wrote down in a plan. A true coach should only be a guide who nudges you in one direction or the other so that you learn how to bring out the best in yourself. In that regard, I have many, many coaches.
I enjoy surrounding myself with people who seek to perfect themselves through both sport and the burning desire to know themselves better, and I take bits and pieces of their learnings and decide whether I want to apply them to myself. Someone whose sole focus is to simply excel at a particular sport and quote their PR's is of no interest to me. Or a person who says "I just do this for fun." Not that there isn't a place in the world for these people--they just aren't my cup of tea. Or a person who is a complete follower and takes learning from others to such an extreme that they lose the ability to make decisions about their own course of action.
My first triathlon coach's purpose was to show me how little I knew about the sport and teach me that it's fucking hard to do well at Ironman while holding down a conventional job and maintaining some semblance of what is colloquially called "having a life." He did a great job of this, not so much by what he told me to do, but what I observed him doing. Did I think he had a life? Not really. Do I think I have one now? Yes--but the life I have chosen might appear to someone else as not having a life. I'm OK with that.
I could never have respect for a coach who isn't in it or doesn't look the part. I would not stand for some out of shape loser trying to tell me how I should modify my nutrition to achieve excellence because hey, obviously he/she isn't doing it so how could he/she possibly demonstrate to me how it works? I don't want to get into a discussion about how someone need not have experience in a sport in order to coach it. While I see that as possible for team sports, on an individual basis, I think not so much.
My next triathlon coach's purpose was to teach me some methodology that I could use to coach myself. Did he know this at the time? Not right away, but I think it became apparent pretty quickly that I was in this to add another facet to my life's journey, and that I was going to soak it up. I never studied sports or was even what I would call athletic until maybe 15 years ago, and while I needed to be told what to do for awhile, after a bit I was able to do it for myself.
Now, as far as making a plan to get me from Point A to Point B in terms of triathlon, I'm the coach. But I tweak and tweak and pay attention to people around me, and am very fortunate that I seem to attract very like-minded people who understand that while it's good to have a guide, even what appears to be an anal-retentively-developed-humongous-training-plan-in-a-spreadsheet guide, that at the end of the day it's about what did I learn about myself, what awesome ideas did I get from others and when might I be able to apply them to myself, and how much fun did I have in the process?
The down side of surrounding yourself with a bunch of driven, hyperactive Type A's (and you know who you are!) is that, well it's natural for us to all be the know-it-all at one time or another and say, "Why don't you do this?" or "Why won't you try that?" And it makes me smile to know that I know these people and while I often have to say "I don't have room for that right now in my life," that I am always banking these ideas for a time when I know it will be right to incorporate them.
In the business world, when I conduct an interview, what I'm expecting the interviewee to reveal to me is "This is what's so fucking great about me and why you should hire me." I suppose that I tend to apply this to real life as well but with a twist: "This is what's so fucking great about me and why you should want to associate with me," and because of it I can be accused of having impossibly high standards. Oh well.
Cuz you know, everyone's a fuckin' coach anyway.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
First Outdoor Ride on LGL in 2009!
Aw, man...68 degrees sunny and windy...I was in HEAVEN! Rode for almost 1:45, and wanted to just keep going, but work calls...
I didn't ride with a plan other than to go as hard as I could up any hill in my path. The wind helped me keep my effort up, too. As you can see from the pic above, my legs are in no danger of becoming skinny, but they will brown up one of these days.
It's supposed to cool off again tomorrow, so I won't get outside on the bike again until maybe Saturday, which may prove to be too cool anyway. That's OK, it's only March, and I am happy to be getting outdoors more, even if it's just to run.
But boy, I still love LGL. Her stiffness is especially appreciated when riding through all the potholes created by our snow-filled winter. Stiff is good!
Progress to Date
I have to say that my back feels really, really solid. There is almost zero hitch in it anymore from any angle, twisting, nothing. So 4 months after injuring the hell out of it, I'm healed! I think the extra core stuff helps, so I need to thank a few people for inspiring me to change things up a bit: Brett for the jump rope and Louis (no I'm not yet training for a Murph!) for the pushups and pullups. The extra abs work was my own idea because I needed to change things up there.
I still have a little over a pound of weight to lose, and hopefully it will be fat, just as I'm pretty sure the other 2.5 have been. And then once I've achieved that, I will reassess and figure out what's next. I tell ya, it doesn't get any easier to stay in shape as each year passes, although the cardiovascular stuff isn't that hard, and I haven't slowed down there yet. But maintaining lean mass is a little more challenging, and gosh, I'm just so used to having some muscle and do not want to lose any.
Well, here I am:



Monday, March 16, 2009
Pics!!!
First, proof of my little fat trimming exercise:
Yesterday I held a baking and cooking orgy--here are pics of the roll of one batch of cookies I made and then the finished product of both cookies. There is a secret ingredient in them, and they turned out really well!
No pics of moi until I feel like it. Since it's warming up and I'm getting outside and starting to brown up, I'll wait until I no longer feel like I'm pasty white.
Weekly Workout Totals 03/09/2009-03/15/2009 and Miscellaneous Stuff
On the weight loss front, I am at about 111.5 lbs. now, down from 114 just 2.5 weeks ago, so all is well there. In terms of where the weight is coming off of, it's a little around my belly and then it must be pretty equally everywhere else, because the only measurement on me that has gotten smaller is 2" below my waist and maybe 1/2" off my butt and hips. But that's exactly what I wanted. Another 1.5 lbs. and I'll be at my fighting weight of 110, and I don't feel skinny at all. I may even go splurge and get a precise bodyfat measurement done just so I know what's going on.
My diet is still far from clean...I like beer (1 a day most days) and some days I just have to reload all the calories I've burned off lest I feel like crap. Even though I've been eating below my needs at least 5 out of 7 days in the week, I don't usually feel especially hungry, but I am becoming aware of the need for more carbs as my training load is increasing steadily. The one thing I have done without for 2 weeks is any sort of candy (I have a special bag of jelly beans with my name on it for 2 weeks from now) and chips most of the time, although on Saturday after 3.5 hours of training, I had to have some Pringles, but just one serving, so not like I'm binging on them. I baked some cookies yesterday and had 2 of them, and the rest of them are being given away otherwise I'd eat them all!
As my training load increases, I am beginning to have cravings for things that I typically want during heavy training--rice pudding, massive amounts of sushi, Pringles, Cheetos, gummi bears, spaghetti carbonara (made with prosciutto) and big hunks of meat. In other words, I am about to make a 6 month guest appearance on the Food Channel!
But I am going to try and keep it fairly clean except for 1 or 2 days each week through next week, which was the promise I made to myself and want to keep. Once I am officially at 16+ hours per week (TWO WEEKS AWAY!!!!), though, all bets are off, and you'll hear me periodically chanting, "SUGAR, SUGAR, SUGAR" or "MEAT, MEAT, MEAT" or "FAT, FAT, FAT" depending on what my body is craving.
Did I say I love food? And exercise?
Spring is in the air now here. There are fat robins everywhere, birds singing early in the morning, I saw the migrating Sandhill cranes overhead yesterday, and the mallards are starting to get sexually aggressive. Tis the season!
| Weekly Workout Totals | 03/09/2009-03/15/2009 This week's totals are sponsored by the coming of spring! |
| Swim: | 9800 yards (5.56 miles) in 3.43 hours; 23% of weekly workout time; approx. 1202 calories burned Canadian: 8961.12 meters |
| Bike: | Approx. 99.96 miles in 5.68 hours; 38% of weekly workout time; approx. 2870 calories burned; Total TSS=325 Canadian: 160.87 kilometers |
| Run: | Approx. 30.33 miles in 4.6 hours; 31% of weekly workout time; approx. 2085 calories burned Canadian: 48.81 kilometers |
| Strength: | 1.33 hours; 9% of weekly workout time; approx. 333 calories burned |
| All Sports: | Approx. 135.85 miles in 15.04 hours; approx. 6490 calories burned Canadian: 8.07 kilometers |
| Sleep: | 8.07 hours avg./night |
| Stretching: | 2.37 hours. Massage: 1 hours |
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
A Sure Sign of Serious Training

So I decided this morning to sign up for the Twin Lakes Triathlon in June. Even though registration isn't open until Monday (and it's just a form you download and mail in, so sadly, there will be no SUBMIT button), just thinking about signing up is exciting. You can draft on the bike in this race, so if you plan your swim accordingly with your biking buds, you can have a great time on the bike and do well on the run.
I'm getting ready to go swim, and I'm brushing my teeth and I barely get the toothbrush in my mouth and I'm gagging. Nice! Usually this doesn't start happening until about mid-May or something (not like I keep track of it in my training spreadsheet but maybe I will now ;) so it was making me laugh, and gagging and laughing at the same time is not a good thing. I know of only one other person who has admitted to having this "issue," and you know me--I have zero qualms about discussing bodily functions, but in this case it was kind of good to know I'm not alone in this.
My belief is that it's the sweetness in the toothpaste coupled with the increase in training which means I am taking in sugars fairly regularly, and well, my usual toothpaste (Crest) is quite sweet. Huh--maybe I should try an experiment with just baking soda? Like that wouldn't make me gag! Or maybe some unflavored toothpaste. I should have known yesterday when I went downstairs to my Gatorade tower to select enough 32-oz. bottles to get me through today through Sunday, and my arms were overflowing, that I am "in it" now. It feels good, and this is what I was preparing for, and while there are no races until Triple T, I've already put in some good intensity work and now it's time for the big volume jump.
So in a weird, perverted way, I *HEART* gagging. All part of going harder, faster and longer!
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Indulging my Inner Pirate (some links NSFW)
I got this cap (which I wore to race in on Sunday):
these goggles (broke the first pair changing the nose bridge; got a replacement last night; will try them out tomorrow):

and I designed this suit at Splish.com, which should arrive in another week or so:
I receive a surprise in the mail last week, a gift from my friend, Susan, who had hinted that she had found something "with my name all over it." Yep, she was dead on, I mean pirates and zebra stripes? It's this purse/carry thingie:How cool is that? Susan found it at some craft fair, and told me that when she spotted it, her first thought was that it was screaming my name! Thanks, Susan--I love it!
You'd think I'd be all over the Avia stuff, but sadly, no pirates on the shoes that I can see. I'm going to start tracking down some sort of pirate shoes, and no, it won't be knee-high "pirate" boots or these. Although, wouldn't it be funny to show up in transition wearing those? Who knows---maybe the Jolly Roger will be flying at TTT and IMLP!
Monday, March 09, 2009
Weekly Workout Totals 03/02/2009-03/08/2009 and Thinking About 2010
Also, just serendipitously (see previous post), I was chatting with one of my BFF's, Shelley, and talked about Goofy Challenge, and then I thought, OMG what if it's already sold out for 2010, and I found out it wasn't, and we are IN IN IN and we're getting other friends to sign up, too!
Goofy Challenge (my 3rd time there) will be the start of the year of no more conventional Ironman races. So far, what I'm thinking about for 2010 is:
- Goofy Challenge in January
- Triple T in May
- Total Man (Day 1: swim as much as possible, Day 2: bike as much as possible, Day 3: run as much as possible) in June
- RAINSTORM in July (100+ miles of biking every day for 7 days)
- Something else pretty extreme in August; need to find something
- SOS (Survival of the Shawangunks) in September
Shelley is asking me when I'm going to post pics of myself. I'm thinking at the end of this week when I'm officially 2 weeks into my little fat trimming/buffing out exercise. I can tell you my upper body is looking good from all the extra pushups and pullups, and my abs are starting to return to normal by changing things up. But I've still got a few more pounds of fat to shave off, I guess I'm just picky that way.
Anyway, here's what I did last week and this week promises to be even better!
| Weekly Workout Totals | 03/02/2009-03/08/2009 This week's totals are sponsored by torrential rain |
| Swim: | 7800 yards (4.43 miles) in 2.7 hours; 19% of weekly workout time; approx. 946 calories burned Canadian: 7132.32 meters |
| Bike: | Approx. 109.79 miles in 6.23 hours; 43% of weekly workout time; approx. 3123 calories burned; Total TSS=365 Canadian: 176.69 kilometers |
| Run: | Approx. 27.17 miles in 4.14 hours; 29% of weekly workout time; approx. 1873 calories burned Canadian: 43.73 kilometers |
| Strength: | 1.27 hours; 9% of weekly workout time; approx. 318 calories burned |
| All Sports: | Approx. 141.39 miles in 14.34 hours; approx. 6260 calories burned Canadian: 7.43 kilometers |
| Sleep: | 7.43 hours avg./night |
| Stretching: | 2.22 hours. Massage: 1 hours |
And the Planning for 2010 Begins....
| Confirmation #: | 197098-030909085711 |
| Date & Time: | 01/09/10 - 01/10/10 |
| Location: | Walt Disney World?? Resort (Map) |
| Purchased at: | 03/09/09 |
| Category: | 2010 Goofy's Race and a Half Challenge |
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Sunday, March 08, 2009
Midwest Indoor Triathlon Series--Series Winner, and Won all 4 Races
Even last night when I went to bed, my stomach did just not feel good. I think it's stress because I started up the tax process for my Dad's 2008 estate filing yesterday, and there are, as usual, glitches, and well, it's been awhile since I've had to process anything like this and it just brings up sad feelings, and couple that with an impending race and water in my house, and let's just say I had some moments of feeling really sorry for myself this morning.
My stomach continued to feel lousy when I woke up this morning, and so given I wasn't racing until 3:05PM, I didn't want to eat any "real" food, so I had a Powerbar for breakfast, a banana (which I thought would help but it didn't), then a can of Coke, some Endurox R4 and finally some Red Bomb (half Ultra Violence and half Gatorade ice) to race with.
I did absolutely nothing yesterday except for a few pushups, pullups and abs. I skipped the jump rope yesterday because I wanted a completely cardio-less day. On Friday, I worked out about 4:45 (1 hour swim, 2:20 bike, 1 hour run plus my extra crap including jump rope) so that I wouldn't need to do anything after today's race, and that meant I could do nothing yesterday. So I did!
This morning, I was on flood duty, did some dinner prep, and had planned on watching a friend race who was starting about an hour before me, and it finally dawned on me that if I wanted to get in a race warmup that I needed to be there earlier than I had planned. Thank God it turned to DST today, because I've been in that time zone for like 6 months now, which means I will wake up at a respectable 4:30-4:45AM instead of my usual 3:30AM! So I was all on schedule except for not doing the math to realize how early I needed to be at the club in order to warm up.
I got there with enough time to do 5' of jump rope and 5' of running, and I didn't get my bike warmup in until I was actually racing. I watched my friend kick ass in his wave, and then it was my turn. Considering how my stomach felt, I didn't have any high aspirations, and since I had already won the 3 previous races, I was guaranteed to win the series title (best 3 out of 4) no matter what, and I didn't think I was too motivated.
But when I got into the pool, it was pretty damn cold, and it felt great, and I just swam strong and easy and met my goal of 550 yards (yeah I'm slow but I can swim that pace FOREVER), and then it was onto the bike. It looked like there might be some contenders in my wave, but when I hit the first mile first, I knew it was game on! One of the volunteers kept asking who would be first to hit the next mile and every time she said that I said to my volunteer, "ME!" I had my second best bike of the 4 races, and when I got off there, I wasn't too thrilled about running (I easily won my wave on the bike).
It looked to me like there were a few women in my wave who would wax me on the run, but we took off and I was in the lead the entire time, how messed up is that? I mean, I am NOT a runner, and here I was lapping everyone and generally not pushing myself too hard because I had nobody to pace off of, and yet I kept thinking SOMEBODY must be a player, but it never happened. I just cruised until there was a minute to go, and then I tried to actually deploy a kick, which I don't usually have, but I must have had one today because I gunned it a little extra, and when it was over I puked in one of the Home Depot buckets! It's been awhile since I've puked after a race, and it made me laugh. The other cool thing is that after maybe 2 laps, I couldn't feel my legs at all! I mean I could tell my feet were making impact with the track, but other than that I had zero feeling in my quads and calves, and that was a really, really great feeling.
We went to check the final results, as I was in the last wave, and my friend won his age group, and when they posted my results, they miscalculated the distances for sure, and I got a little upset about it and went into the office where they were calculating and showed them the mistake. Cuz the next best woman to me in my age group was slower on all three legs, yet how could her total distance be more than mine??? I was like fuck, please fix this, although I didn't swear at the volunteers, but they could tell I was a little excited. So they fixed me up and then I put my results back up on the board and felt pretty good about the whole thing since I felt like crap.
I am now home and have a good deal of water downstairs, but I can take care of it--it's just rain water--and hopefully the rains have stopped, and hey, I didn't have to run for 1:30 after the race so I don't even feel beat up! And I should be able to knock out a regular swim tomorrow morning, and life is pretty fucking good!
I know these are just stinky little indoor triathlons, but the cool thing is I have not gotten any slower, and I obliterated everyone in my age group and maybe even one or two lower, so that's cool, and I'm almost at my fighting weight (I was at 112.4 this morning, fuckin' A!), and now I'm getting pumped about starting the big volume buildup for Triple T.
Since I barely had any calories so far, I am drinking several painkillers (beers) to make some of them up. It was a great day of racing, and maybe I don't actually suck as bad as I sometimes think I do. Hey, a win is a win, right?
Thursday, March 05, 2009
113--The Plan is Working
I'm pretty sure I don't generally burn 500 calories per hour swimming, although the last time I used an HRM in an Ironman, I think my swim came out to about 750, so under the stress and excitement of a race, that may be true. For biking, the Ergomo tells me exactly what I am burning based on my power output, and on an average basis, it comes out to about 550. For running, I definitely don't meet the 100 calories/mile estimate because I am so small, but if I remember from when I used an HRM, it was around 525-550/hour. Strength I have no clue!
So my 6-day deficit as measured with what I believe to be my burn rates is about 3800 calories, which should be a little over a pound. I've been adding about 10 minutes of extra stuff per day that is not included in my calories burned total, and if you figure on 500 calories per hour for that, it comes out to another 500 calories, so maybe 4300 (although I'm not including that extra stuff in my calories burned for purposes of dropping weight), and 4300/3500 is 1.3. Nice!
It is good to see that the old calories in/calories out equation is working the way it should. I frequently hear people bitching and moaning about how they can't lose weight even though they believe they are technically creating a significant calorie deficit. I always tell them that the only way to prove their statements is by having their RMR/BMR measured, their exercise burn rates approximated based on that (which requires a bodyfat % calculation, too), and then keep meticulous records of intake and output. But then one needs to recognize that as you drop weight, your RMR for sure is going to change, and unless you keep adding more exercise, your BMR would drop, too. So it is true that there's a delicate balance between how much you eat, how much exercise you do (on average), how lean you are and to an extent, age. Which is why I have had rules of thumb about what I will and won't eat based on the average number of training hours per week that I do, and I knew full well that I was not paying close attention to that this winter, and presto, extra fat. DUH.
Why should RMR/BMR be affected by age, all other things being equal? Technically, it may not be. That is, if you maintain the same bodyfat %, then as you age, all other things being equal, your RMR/BMR should stay pretty much level. Many RMR/BMR estimates will use your age but not your bodyfat %. So the assumption is that as you age that you get fatter, which is true for most sedentary to moderately active people. Is it more difficult to maintain lean mass as you age? I think that may be true to an extent, but is it biochemically based? I doubt it. I think that as we age we adjust our standards to be "OK" with a little more fat than we had when we were younger. I mean, face it, it's hard work to stay lean and muscular. Like I always say, if it were easy, then everyone would be ripped and gorgeous!
I can tell you from my pre-endurance days that I was able to maintain a weight of around 118 lbs. on very few calories--maybe 1800 per day. I think there is an individual daily quantity of food that makes you feel "not deprived." I remember when I was watching my intake like a hawk and that 1800 did not seem like a whole lot of food. Since I've been tracking things again for almost a week, it "feels" like around 2000-2200 is satiating to me. But if I wasn't doing all the CV stuff, that would be enough for me to get fat pretty fast.
A nice by product of the extra stuff that I'm doing is that I'm using/developing muscles that don't normally come with the "triathlon" package. It feels really good! Jumping rope is an excellent warmup for anything else and is awesome for your calves, core and arms, the pushups and pullups may be helping me in the water, and changing up/supplementing my abs work was something I needed to do anyway.
Where this will all lead, who knows. In case you're asking the question, am I vain? Of course. I'd like to stop/slow down the aging process as much as the next person, but I also want to feel strong in my daily activities aside from triathlon. It's nice, for example, to be able to shovel my driveway when I feel like it and not be sore, or to rake leaves for 4 hours or be bent over for a few hours gardening. And it was really nice to be able to weather a stupid back injury--I'm not saying I did it with aplomb, but it could have been much, much worse.
I'm sure some of you are wondering when I will post pics of my work. Give me another week and we'll see what I think after dropping another pound.
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Writing for Another Blog
I enjoyed writing this article and hope to write more. If you are or know of beginner triathletes, please send them over Brett's way. He knows a few things and more importantly, is 100% into the mental aspects of training and racing, which is one of the things that led us to become friends.
Monday, March 02, 2009
Weekly Workout Totals 02/23/2009-03/01/2009 and Getting Into Gear
2 years ago when I did the 4 indoor tris and just added them on top of my usual serious training build, I wasn't able to keep up my run volume. Looking back, it may have been because I did a marathon in January, 2007 (actually Goofy Challenge), but it may have been that I wasn't strong enough at the time to do it.
This year, though, I haven't missed a beat (knock wood!) on my running except for one week when I was sick, and I cut back just a little there. Don't get me wrong--Mondays after a sprint plus 1:30-1:40 of running has still been a challenge to recover from, but I've been getting it done in the midst of recovering from a serious back injury, my strength buildup, weekly track workouts, and pretty solid bike workouts.
I guess 2009 is the year of the big changes. I am tweaking things here and there, and it feels good to do it and that means it was probably necessary. At the end of the day, I just want to feel strong and solid and be able to train (i.e., have fun) a lot! So doing a few odd group trainer workouts, swimming with paddles (yeah I know there are those who say that's good and those who say not--I don't care--my upper body is responding well to them so good for me), adding some new peripheral stuff (chinups, extra pushups and abs work and jump rope), and paying more (actually what is generally my normal) attention to my diet, all seems to be moving me in the right direction.
This coming on the heels of a stinky prior racing season and major renovation of my house, all feels pretty great. My beautiful upstairs bathroom is finally 100% functional (freezing pipes solved), and I know it sounds silly, but I am really looking forward to taking a bath in there! I don't take baths very often, as I'm usually showering twice a day as it is, but I am going to park myself in there this week sometime and enjoy the hell out of it.
This week my strengh routine moves to maintenance mode, which is going to feel like a piece of cake compared to the last 7 weeks. But as soon as my new, heavier medicine ball arrives, I will be putting the hurt to my abs, which have languished for the last few years at the same resistance level (12 lbs.; moving to 15), so that should be interesting, huh?
I've ordered seeds, a few plants and some lily bulbs to plant once it warms up, and I have already noticed certain bulbs poking out of the ground. We've had plenty of snow this winter, so spring should be outstanding, and while I have a lot of perennial stems to cut down and don't particularly look forward to mowing the lawn, every spring I am always so in awe of all the beautiful flowers I've planted through the years and the fact that with minimal care, they come back and just, well, make my yard a thing of beauty and a place for me to just walk around and be amazed by the colors, scents, insects and birds. Actually something is already blooming--my giant pussy willow is full of catkins (ha ha that's the technical term you pervs) that will soon explode and begin attracting bees, and crocuses are not far behind, and then daffodils, hyacinths, peonies--I have close to 100 different flowering plants in my yard. And yet each spring I am surprised at the procession of green and flowers, and it's so rejuvenating.
March is the month here when you get teased by the spectre of warm weather, and it's important to be prepared to take advantage whenever the opportunity presents. It's supposed to be in the 50's on Friday, so that may mean an outdoor ride. I'll begin transitioning to more and more outdoor running, but need to build that up gradually to get my legs used to the pounding of the pavement and also my nearby hills! Yes, hills! I miss them...and I look forward to cursing them.
Well, time to go run and swim. Happy Monday!
| Weekly Workout Totals | 02/23/2009-03/01/2009 This week's totals are sponsored by Discipline |
| Swim: | 9500 yards (5.39 miles) in 3.3 hours; 23% of weekly workout time; approx. 1155 calories burned Canadian: 8686.8 meters |
| Bike: | Approx. 106.56 miles in 5.9 hours; 41% of weekly workout time; approx. 3187 calories burned; Total TSS=355 Canadian: 171.49 kilometers |
| Run: | Approx. 24.3 miles in 3.81 hours; 26% of weekly workout time; approx. 1729 calories burned Canadian: 39.11 kilometers |
| Strength: | 1.55 hours; 11% of weekly workout time; approx. 388 calories burned |
| All Sports: | Approx. 136.25 miles in 14.56 hours; approx. 6459 calories burned Canadian: 7.71 kilometers |
| Sleep: | 7.71 hours avg./night |
| Stretching: | 3.3 hours. Massage: 0 hours |
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Mojo Coming Back
I wasn't sure how much of anything I would do today...some kinda long run (according to Dr. I was not supposed to run until tomorrow, ha ha--actually it started out as "no running for a week" to which I said "That will not be happening") and then swimming, depending. Warmed up with 5' of jump rope, 2x5 chinups, 20 pushups and about 5' of abs. Feeling good! Onto the treadmill, feeling good, nothing seems to be breaking, ended up going 1:55 for 12.3 miles, not blazing, but felt strong. Felt like I could have run a marathon today. Followed up with 2800 yds. (700 with paddles) swimming, which also felt great until maybe the last 400 when my body said FEED ME!!!
I have to mess with the training schedule for the coming week since I want to get in all the regularly scheduled S/B/R plus do well at the last of the 4 indoor tris on Sunday, plus I did no brick runs this week so I need to sneak in a couple or 3. Which means I need to move my long ride to Friday (including a brick run), and instead of a long run on Sunday after the race (my wave isn't until 3:05 PM so fuck that), I'll just spread out running throughout the week to get to my necessary total.
It feels like my mojo is coming back in a big way, as this is the best I've felt in months, really, just strong, solid and ready for much, much more. As it should be with Triple T in 12 weeks! I have to say, I had forgotten how good jumping rope feels and how it just revs you up for whatever follows! Considering that way back when before I began running I used to jump rope for an hour continuously, starting back with only 5' seems pretty lame, but I'm guessing I'll build back up to maybe 15' daily in addition to whatever training I have scheduled on weekdays. I highly doubt I will be up for the jumping on weekends when I'm riding 3+ hours.
I'm having fun cycling through all kinds of abs exercises that I haven't done in years, and it's a good thing because I can tell my abs had gotten used to my regular routine, so it's time to mix it up. And I finally bought (online) a 15-lb. medicine ball with double handles so I can increase the weight on any abs work I do with a medicine ball, and I should be able to add new stuff now that I'll have handles!
My 4-week clean up plan is going well, being on Day 3 now. Maybe it's just the little extra bit of exercise, maybe it's cutting out some crap I was eating, but I feel pretty good, and it should just get better from here, and I'm pretty confident I won't be a fat ass in 4 weeks!
Friday, February 27, 2009
Four Week "Cleansing" Plan
I've been kind of a slacker this winter as far as my diet goes--too much alcohol (not that it wasn't fun!), too many treats, probably not drinking enough water and eating a little too richly for my needs. Also, I tend to get confused when I'm training a lot and get my carb balance all out of whack, and so nutritionally I'm probably not doing the best I can.
Aaaaaaaaaanyway, I feel fat. I've weighed myself, and you can only go so long in saying "maybe it's muscle." Maybe some of it is. Net net is I'm 114 lbs. and that ain't good for me. I should be 110-112, max. So this morning I decided it was time to bite the bullet and make myself a plan to obliterate those 2-4 lbs.
Step 1: Find out where the hell are those pounds. So I took all my measurements yesterday morning. Apparently, the excess is in my ass. Let's just say from about 2" below my navel to the top of my thighs, which is generally the belly/ass area. My chest measured about 1" larger than a year ago, but honestly I am not seeing any fat up there, so I'm going to say that's my lats building up from the regular chinups and more swimming with paddles, so that's good. But 1" there is not 1 lb. of muscle...damn it. For the sake of accountability, here are some comparisons:

Step 2: Fess up to nutritional changes I need to make to get myself back on track. Among those changes are less alcohol, no more candy or hard cheese in the house, eat more fruit and watch my fat intake. Fact is I know that if I just grab some fruit when I want a snack that it will pretty much take care of the rest. But I am also going to try and cut out some processed foods at breakfast and lunch (Power bars and Lean Cuisine) that aren't impacting my caloric intake, but it seems like a good idea to get back to more whole, clean foods there as well.
Step 3: While I'm at it, I may as well add some other things to my daily routine just to mix things up. So daily pushups, chinups, crunches and jump rope are being added. Why? Why not.
Step 4: Start tracking stuff. I haven't kept a detailed food log in years, and I'm not going to do that now, but I am writing down calories taken in. I'll weigh myself once a week and record that, too. Also check off whether I followed through on the other little things.
I officially started my 4 weeks yesterday. So far so good! I did some crunch variations this morning that I haven't done in a long, long time, and I really felt it in my abs, so that tells me it was time to mix things up. I know my body gets used to anything I'm doing, be it an amount of training, intensity of training, stretching routine, eating pattern--ANYTHING! It's maddening at times, but the fact is my (and maybe your) body requires me to constantly keep it on its toes.
I'm not going to change around my training plan--just adding some things here and there. In 4 weeks, my training volume is going to begin the big jump-up to get ready for Triple T (only 12 weeks away) and IMLP (21 weeks away). So it will be good to head into this build period feeling lean, mean and solid.
Next week I transition to strength maintenance, too, so all good in terms of ch-ch-ch-changes. I ordered some seeds and plants this morning, so psychologically, I am preparing myself for spring and all the changes that brings, increased training volume, mixing things up and hopefully a good season ahead for me. But at the end of the day, all this is about to me is looking and feeling good. The race results will be what they will be. As long as I have fun doing it, what more is there to do?
Oh, and I can always use a little...
Thursday, February 26, 2009
I'm an "Endurance Specialist"
Anyway, a group of us went out for dinner afterwards (me and a bunch of men--go figure), and there was a new guy present, and we were talking about riding (big surprise) and what we've done and stuff, and the shop owner, Rich, tagged me as "an endurance specialist." I've been called many things, but never that. I almost wish he had just said "Crackhead."
Thing is, sure I like endurance stuff. A LOT. But I still love my strength and other stuff, and pre-triathlon, I was into volleyball, softball, stair climbing and other assorted nonsense. I guess maybe being labeled made me think about what I'm doing, do I still like it, is it time to make changes, all that stuff. Yes and yes.
What's funny is that even as I write this, I want to do a really, really long training day. Why is that? I was telling someone about my 2008 birthday workout, and I really enjoyed that except for the fact that I was working that day, too (if I didn't work that day I would have done more). I really like hiking in the mountains, too. And then someone mentioned Italy. I really want to spend a few weeks there riding in the mountains (OK and drinking wine and eating great food).
All of this points to changing things around next year. For now, I'm sticking with my plan to try and knock out a few good triathlon performances. Yes, I have a fairly rigid training program, yes I should probably mix things up, and that's where I think dropping some races from the calendar may come in. Or not.
A lot of this is prompted by being absolutely sick of winter, long pants, long shirts, coats, hats, gloves, grey skies, indoor workouts. The idea of a 5-hour bike ride is intoxicating!
Monday, February 23, 2009
Weekly Workout Totals 02/16/2009-02/22/2009 and stinky race
Every time I've done this series, I have one off race, so this was it, but it was still a good day. I got to watch some other people I know race who did really well, and hey, a bad day racing is still better than a good day working, right? Plus, I couldn't do my long run right there at the club where the race was held, so I had to drive home and fire up a treadmill on my Y. My race was at 10:05, and I started running again at 1:25, had a short massage in between, but still man, did it feel NOT GOOD to run later! I could feel all the lactate (or whatever it is, depending on who you ask) in my legs, and it was just torture to keep going. I wanted to stop so badly, asking myself why the fuck am I doing this to myself? A normal person would just have gone home and taken a nap or at least put their feet up. But NOOOOOO....the voice in my head that knows that it's better to suffer like this now in training because it will toughen me up for the stuff to come, namely Triple T, Horribly Hilly, Rockman 1/2 Ironman and IMLP all in the space of 10 weeks. So I had better be plenty tough to not only withstand all that but also try and do well at each of them. At least once every 5 minutes I told myself that I had done enough, but then I would tell myself that I could make it through another 5 minutes, and so I kept going and got in 1:20 more of running, and I thought about stretching a little bit before I went home, but that went out the window as my body was screaming for calories. I went home and drank some Endurox and made some guacamole and did some dinner prep and washed the dishes and then I finally got around to some serious stretching around 5PM and my body was so thankful for that, and I knew I would feel like I'd been pretty well torched this morning.
I was pleasantly awakened today by a male cardinal singing right outside my bedroom, and I just laid in bed with my eyes closed listening to him sing, and thought what a nice way to be woken up (not that there aren't better ways--there are--but still) and how that bird's song is a surefire sign that spring is just around the corner (I saw a robin last week, too), and I kept laying there for a few minutes assessing how my muscles felt, and not too surprisingly, I felt like I "did something" the day before. I got out of bed, made some coffee, and thought about just taking a rest day, but again, the point of what I'm doing now is to get up and do it again, repeat weekly, and force the body to adapt. I only swam for 1/2 hour, and it felt absolutely wonderful to be in the water, and I could tell the swimming was helping to flush some crap out of my system.
The next item on my agenda for today was a :50 run, and of course, my legs were protesting violently to this possibility, but I told them to shut the fuck up and I was going to run. I decided to don my compression socks, because I knew that if I looked like a complete and total dork that I wouldn't cheese out on the run, I mean how lame would I look if I only ran for like 20 minutes? I can't say the compression socks made any difference whatsoever, but just knowing they were there acted like a whip to keep me going. I actually had a pretty decent easy-ish run, although when I was finished I immediately went home and jumped on a conference call and my body was screaming for more calories, and luckily I could throw something in the microwave while I was listening in on the call, and then I had 5 minutes in between calls, so I got my shower in, and I'm laughing at how this is what I choose to do.
This stuff is so conducive to flip flopping mental states. This morning I was chatting with a friend at the pool about how it feels really good (to him and me, at least) when we are just really fucking tired from a good day of training and whatever else life has thrown at us. I've figured out that for myself, when I am in that tired state, there is nothing else I can think about but how tired I am, and that frees my brain to let go and really relax. I mean like I know I was watching the Oscars last night, but I don't remember a whole lot about it because I was so wiped out and it felt so good and I didn't really care who was winning or what the award was for and even though my own race sucked, I HTFU'ed and ran afterwards. So in one day I started out optimistic, felt bad that I performed like a total loser slacker, but then kept going and got that end of the day bliss that makes all of this worth it.
I am really nobody in the big scheme of things, but this is what I choose right now for myself. At least a few times every year I run into someone I haven't seen for awhile, and get asked the question, "Are you still doing all that hardcore training and stuff?" And now I just smile at them because what I'm thinking is asking them about how great is their life is and how do they feel about their choices? It's almost as if people expect you to just fall down and give up, and what the hell, is that the norm? Oh yeah, that's right life is hard. It IS. I'm not in it to win an award, but I am in it to LIVE IT and I intend to keep doing that. Pushing myself makes me feel alive; being exhausted after pushing myself makes me feel alive. Sure I don't have to outrun bullets or survive horrid living conditions, and maybe that's why I choose this for myself because I DO have it easy relative to a lot of people. I just really, really like feeling alive. I love moving around, I love the sun shining on my face, tending to my little piece of land that produces so much incredible beauty for much of the year, tuning into the nature that is presented to me, enjoying good food and drink, putting in a good day's work, and maybe, just maybe putting a smile on someone else's face or getting them to think about what they could do to enhance their own life.
I'm rambling, but I get to that every now and then just so I remember what all is swirling about in my head. Life is good. No--life is great! I am once again back to feeling like problems are just small things, and that is the best part of all of this. I am really looking forward to riding my bikes outside soon enough, but also sinking my hands into the dirt in my yard and seeing what I can make grow and give me pleasure there. I guess I'm a hedonist of sorts--I love the beauty of nature, and I love colors (duh) and tastes and smells and sounds. I think we were given our senses and neuromuscular system to experience and enjoy everything around us and not taking advantage of that seems to me a grand waste of a life.
Anyway, here's what I did last week:
| Weekly Workout Totals | 02/16/2009-02/22/2009 This week's totals are sponsored by the coming of spring! |
| Swim: | 7850 yards (4.46 miles) in 2.75 hours; 19% of weekly workout time; approx. 962 calories burned Canadian: 7178.04 meters |
| Bike: | Approx. 101.02 miles in 5.63 hours; 39% of weekly workout time; approx. 2812 calories burned; Total TSS=295 Canadian: 162.58 kilometers |
| Run: | Approx. 28.12 miles in 4.33 hours; 30% of weekly workout time; approx. 1956 calories burned Canadian: 45.25 kilometers |
| Strength: | 1.87 hours; 13% of weekly workout time; approx. 468 calories burned |
| All Sports: | Approx. 133.6 miles in 14.58 hours; approx. 6198 calories burned Canadian: 1.25 kilometers |
| Sleep: | 7.61 hours avg./night |
| Stretching: | 2.78 hours. Massage: 1.25 hours |