Random Musings

• I am not as happy as I want to be. I'll get there. At least I am beginning to feel "not rotten."
• I'm starting to work out regularly again. That helps me to feel happier. Having had a taste of what it's like to be a sloth (my definition), it doesn't surprise me how many angry, out of shape people there are in the world.
• Never thought I'd say this--but a workout done slowly is still a workout. I miss the pain.
• I'll take physical pain from working out any day over being overstressed, overweight, inactive, mad at the world or ungrateful.
• What is it with sociopaths? I suppose I should feel sorry for them, but I don't. They sure don't have any empathy towards me. ATTENTION SOCIOPATHS: I'm onto your game.
• I can still appreciate hotties even though I am not one. What does that make me? A hottie hag?
• I can't swim worth shit, but I still like doing it. Being in the water and not thinking about anything besides trying to get across the damn pool and feeling the water on my body and just breathing and not sinking is enough for about 1 hour. Getting to watch other great swimmers (guys)--BONUS! The B-Man rocks!
• My favorite colors right now are pink and black. Anything goes with black and pink makes people notice.
• I'm not smiling as much as I did a few months ago, but that will come back. I really like to smile!
• I continue to find it amusing at the number of professional people who can't separate facts from emotions. Both are, but both are very different.
• I understand people who don't know what to say to me right now, or who don't understand my change into this person who I am right now. I imagine it's confusing to see someone who normally appears so together and such appear to be falling apart randomly. If there's one thing I learned is that one needs to learn about how to fall apart and then put oneself back together again. Right now I'm sort of stuck in a Humpty Dumpty loop--sit on wall, feel in control, fall off, fall apart, climb back up, repeat. Eventually I'll get back to climb wall, do cartwheels on wall, laugh at anyone not on wall, stay up there for months at a time, and climb down when I feel like it.
• The way I like to be treated is give me the damn facts, and then let me choose my own emotions. Don't impose your emotions on me unless it's pure, unadulterated joy!
• Mean people will always suck.
• Everyone is more attractive when they smile.
• I want a sign for my yard that reads: INVISIBLE DOG--FENCE IN TRAINING.
• I want to be able to make some workouts hurt. I'm getting there on the bike. That's my #1 priority right now.
• I can't wait for Ironman #11. THIS ONE GOES UP TO ELEVEN!