Lots of good things happening now...my back is getting better day by day, I got my yard all put away for the winter (just in time--we've got several inches of snow on the ground), I still have a bathroom in progress but am living with it, had a great Thanksgiving, I'm getting my training plan put together, I'm starting to sleep better, I'm headed to Orlando later this week and will have a full day in (hopefully) the sun, the remodeling has an end in sight and I'm actually looking forward to Christmas now, even though that means I need to do some gift buying.
Wow--what a change from just a week ago. Goes to show you how life can swing rapidly between the yin and yang. And as cliche as it sounds, when one door closes, another one opens. Lots of doors are opening for me now. For awhile there, I felt like they were slamming closed all around me. I was losing my ability to shake off all the small stuff--but there was just so much of it that it became difficult to do.
The grief counselor that I have worked with over the past year told me that when you lose someone, it's like when they were alive, you were like intersecting circles:
The blue piece is the combination of your lives. When you lose someone, that intersection piece becomes a void for awhile, and you have to reinvent yourself to make up for it. In the past 3 years, I have lost my Mom, my Dad, and recently (although not due to death) someone I loved. So my feelings that I have lost myself and am reconstructing myself have been right on target. At the same time, though, those big, white pieces of my circles are still present, although they have been somewhat warped.
I am not finished filling in those voids. It's interesting to me that I am adding all this black stuff into my house. I've always known that I have this deep, black core that is something I must honor and respect. But then there's the diametric opposite of it which is the person that loves all things shiny and very colorful! What I've come around to is that the black is a nice background against which to superimpose the shiny and colorful. There. That's me in a nutshell. I am OK with the blackness, and I am OK with the shiny and colorful.
This past week's totals look huge because I felt obligated to count all the hours I spent raking and bagging leaves and cutting down roses and assorted dead perennials as strength work. The actual amount of time I spent doing all that was about 7 hours; I recorded it in my training log as 3. I think that's a fair compromise! I'm very excited about getting ready for a 1/2 NothingMan in 4 weeks--I've even designed a Splish suit for it:
I think this 1/2 NothingMan will be symbolic of the process I've been going through, and so I'm planning on celebrating!
I also note that today makes 3 consecutive days that I've gotten 8 hours of sleep! Last week was also the most stretching I've done in 12 weeks. I'm coming back!
| Weekly Workout Totals | 11/24/2008-11/30/2008 This week's totals are sponsored by Crackhead's Den of Iniquity that is under construction |
| Swim: | 9300 yards (5.28 miles) in 3.2 hours; 20% of weekly workout time; approx. 1120 calories burned Canadian: 8503.92 meters |
| Bike: | Approx. 94.33 miles in 5.25 hours; 33% of weekly workout time; approx. 2580 calories burned; Total TSS=285 Canadian: 151.81 kilometers |
| Run: | Approx. 28.86 miles in 4.49 hours; 28% of weekly workout time; approx. 2040 calories burned Canadian: 46.45 kilometers |
| Strength: | 3 hours; 19% of weekly workout time; approx. 750 calories burned |
| All Sports: | Approx. 128.47 miles in 15.94 hours; approx. 6490 calories burned Canadian: 1.25 kilometers |
| Sleep: | 6.86 hours avg./night |
| Stretching: | 1.5 hours. Massage: 1.25 hours |
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